Bah

Dead night out--complete mental block.  It's annoying--in some ways even more so--since I feel much more confident in general--but I continue to limit myself.  I was saying to Kedar earlier that I think I've forumed myself out--it has become an obsession that is not healthy...with the back and forth switching that i was doing with the PlentyOfFish site awhile back.  I have to trust myself--and ego/rejection be damned.  I spoke to one girl in Brick Lane at Kedar's prodding--went (of course) fine.  German/Hungarian girl.  I was also a bit caught up with what other PUA's were doing--I have to stop this.  I HAVE to be myself.  The other stuff is developing--just relax!!!!

I also really would like to try the direct things--(actually I'm trying to move away from forum-speak)--basically saying whatever comes to mind.  If she's cute, say so.  If she's reading, ask a question.

This is ME.  I'ts IN me.  It's THERE!!!!!!  JUST CHILL and it will come.  I wonder if a short-term relatinoship will help here?  Catch 22, eh??