Not out of the woods yet!

Funny.  High state as of Sunday night--

Monday--felt fine--relatively confident--but few openers...

Tuesday--(today) --out of state, heavy distraction, same feeilng in my face/sinuses (just the obsession)--poorer memory--declining belief in myself.

But you know something?  So what.  Sunday night--when I was feeling good--I really had the feeling that even if I lost it--I'd pull through.

So I will.

I contacted Yad (haven't heard from him yet) and this guy Yosha (Andy) from the forum who seems to have exactly my issues--turns out he was one of the people in the documentary they did in 2007.  We may meet for coffee.  I bet I can learn a lot from him.

Anyway--at least I know that the lack of confidence and disconnection I feel today is less constant--and may go away tomorrow.  Wed. night sarge planned with Kedar--so my hope is to pull through anyway (with the added benefit of a wing) and take the conversation/rapport to another level.

I'll get back to you !